(( a haiku, for my son - on his 7th birthday ))
my Omaja Zen
I'm so proud to be your mom
you're so cool and smart
seven years ago
you came here to bless the Earth
today is your day
it's been such a joy
to watch you learn and grow up
you have so much light
thanks for being you
you're the coolest kid I know
happy birthday son
❤
hit 'em up like namaste
got so much to say
but it's cool, i'll stay
over here
where the sun shines
and the grass is green
come through whenever
you can join me
we'll clink glasses at the top.
keep climbing up
fill your cup
I'm doing the same.
the humbleness that comes with the acceptance that I would spend my last penny, my last prayer, on a wish for us to embody God’s gift of discernment. help humanity move in the right direction. shed a few tears, release the fear, breathe in love, light and protection. we’re all connected. don’t ever forget it, what a blessing. we have to hold tight to the truth – there’s no difference in me and you. ❤
brain blast back to the clouds
out of the most sunken of places.
why do I dance in darkness so much?
to flirt with creativity.
aware that I can still do that in the sun.
~ balance the duality ~
I believe in angels, I believe in grace
I know better than to not hold a smile on my face
and be grateful.
like take a deep breath, girl
you have everything you need to be anybody you want.
(( you are who you think you are ))
continue to evolve
and share the light.
always been pretty and pretty defensive. always been taken advantage of. the fault of being gorgeous, graceful and mind fucked. a dying star. might just set this shit on fire “when you know how to swim, you can burn any bridge”. tried to burn this bridge too soon. golden gate energy in its essence, connected to heaven, past the sun and moon. watched it start to fall, hated the view. fell into the oceans blues. came up to breathe, to reconnect. cleared the air, no more loose ends. tied it up, now its even. back to the sky to meet again. 3rd times a charm, stars need star friends, eternal light needs to transcend but it’s 1 step forward, 2 steps back. again and again and again. feeling grateful nonetheless, must be part of the cosmic dance.
booked and busy 'round the clock
full speed on the hamster wheel
giving all I've got
going nowhere really, fast
I'm tired
when does this thing stop?
would walk through fire
to find a way back to
a closer view
of what could have transpired
between the two
the warmth in one heart + the buzz in both minds
cross pollinated possibility
bloomed of desire
a flower set ablaze
by an alluring flame
violently tamed
despite the attraction
go off separate ways
as learned, this is the price to pay
and the Earth she cried
when she heard the goodbye
familiar with the ending
and the loss of time
still she holds faith
the two share the light
darkness for now
nothing bright
- maybe in the next life.
a reader, a writer, a poet
a mother, a lover, a leaver
a shit-talker, a witch.
a pour me another, light the blunt up-er.
a badass motherfucker.
still a student, still prudent
still tell you to shut up
like "just put your big girl pants on and do it".
still don't got time to waste.
a gorgeous, anointed,
bitch with good taste.
a heaven sent visionary woman.
come through, I got the juice at my table. freshly squeezed, organic. I’m grateful. thank you, God. I’m never thirsty, I’m learning. my curiosity quenched by the truth.
sometimes I play small
I'm just a particle of the Earth
after all - a bright one.
atom, and Eve...bit the apple, kept a seed
watered it, grew a tree.
got some knowledge in my brain
created my own lane - an architect.
no hard hat, just hard headed. no cap. locked in.
I'm hard to fuck with - a black cat.
lived 9 lives, soul won't die.
Christ Consciousness, type shit ...protected
chosen. they cannot touch this.
be where I'm supposed to be, see what I'm supposed to see.
right place, right time. I'm righteous, I shine bright.
made of stardust and temptation.
infinite.
I go on and on and on. that’s reincarnation.
bars.
we romanticize connection while resisting everything.
everything that is required for salvation.
vulnerability. consistency. CURIOSITY. accountability,
the willingness to be inconvenienced
by someone else's human-ness. their humanity.
most of us don't actually fear being alone.
we fear the depth and loss of control that comes with being known.
love is not something we fall into or something to find.
it is something we participate in.
together
we can jump right in...
or do you not know how to swim?
…………poetry.
as I was looking down, I got pushed off a cloud
I spiraled and fell into hell.
crawled my way back up and got stuck
in the middle, on this planet.
still I carry the medicine from heaven in my pocket (( 777 ))
learned how to fly here
I kissed the sky and I liked it.
experienced and alchemized it- the darkness.
I could wrap you in my light
protect you from the dark, under my angel wings
it might be your own shadow - and that's okay.
out of the cold I could help you grow a rose
I could be the warmth that it needs
and the water that it feeds on
before you dug it up to gift to me.
I could pour honey all over your aura
and watch it take over
the void that you're seduced by - stir it into the black hole.
the gold from my soul could fill the cracks
that have broken open where your lack of love is at.
I could sprinkle some of my glitter on to you
and talk you up, make you feel like a winner.
I could let you repent and confess
your sins from your bleeding heart
and still love you as a sinner.
mix my sparkles in the holy water
and teach you how to bless yourself.
but maybe you don't like to shine - and that's okay.
not everyone loves themselves enough anyways
to lean on an Earth angel
꩜
in tune enough to feel
what others have attempted
to throw off
and intrude.
grounded enough to know
that no foul intention
can undo
that which God has gifted
and protected.
( ( (( l i g h t )) ) )
I'd never survive
trailing treats from a mans hands
moving forward blind
with no sense of direction
no sense of knowing
when a meal, when substance
would be not just thrown, but shared.
I'd rather fast, I'd rather breathe air
than hold my breath
to wait for
breadcrumbs.
there's more than enough
to be served.
so, no.
but, thank you.
keep feeding the birds
breadcrumbs.
I'd rather wait
for a full plate
on a silver platter
october 1, 2026
(( a haiku, for my little sister - on her birthday ))
my sister is cool
she might be cooler than me
she is a good friend
my sister is gay
and she has a gay dog too
Roger, my nephew
my sister is weird
but she makes me laugh a lot
she is a libra
my sister is cute
like damn girl, where'd you get this?
and she has nice hair
my sister is sweet
I pray she has a great year
happy birthday sis
❤
september 29, 2026
what it is meant to be, I don't know if I will ever know. learned to detach, let it go. still I'm seeking the truth, never satisfied. the Truman show. real love, real life. hidden in plain sight. don't forget, it's all connected. a web. fractals. sacred geometry. an ocean. drowning in the light. holding my breath. searching too hard for myself the whole time. slow down, breathe. be at peace. you are whole (I am whole), I am beautiful (you are beautiful). a simpler version of me searching for me. in the dark. oh, there you are. hello my friend. shapeshift again. please don't forget to smile. ❤
september 28, 2026
wish we never fell off
wish I could still hear his thoughts
wish the silence actually brought peace
wish someone would break it
wish someone would say it
wish I could be more passionate
wish he wasn’t so adamant
wish we were better friends
wish I didn't force an ending
wish I would stop wishing
wish I would stop wondering
...do you love me?
september 23, 2026
sometimes feral, sometimes divine I'll bite my lip and take what's mine not one to beg, just pray - manifest that I'm abundant, that I'm getting the bag won't show my hand, hiding aces and grinning I never fold, I'm addicted to winning a cap for you is just the ceiling a cap for me? non-existent ~ the sky ~ get what I want, no matter the price master alchemist, my energy's right light a candle and write down a prayer 3 times desire it all, my actions align let the Universe handle the rest a white witch, I'm blessed an angel, heaven sent oracle, I ascend see everyones futures off in the distance throat chakra open, I speak what it is can't see what I'm doing, you should mind your business evil eyes sent my way are never dismissed I suggest you pray for forgiveness my bloodline comes from a long line of witches don't trip I got the voodoo for you bitches. (( 666 ))
september 20, 2026
infatuation with all of my teachers
sometimes professors, sometimes bosses
sometimes they're not shit, call them losses
mistakes, tosses
but if they're tall and fine and smart
then I'll let them toss me around (( so hot ))
won't date outside my frequency
most of these lames can't keep up with me
moving in slow-motion, begging, please
to be loved by me, for exclusivity
sorry baby, what's your IQ again?
that's what I thought...lets just be friends
you can't get close to me unless
you have something good to teach
ask my ex lovers, its not easy
to impress me, to undress me, to spend time with me
I had to learn something
from them all
before I even let them call
still A-romantic, just like to learn. just like to talk
I'm a sapiosexual.
september 10, 2026
don’t feel the urge to reverse much any more, pushed us both out the door. after you already had turned me away, for 2,222 days. found your way back, for whatever- the reason. felt like forever. all I did with the time, was do better. turned the page, cleared the channel. opportunity finally opened but never asked if you noticed the signs. still remember old conversations, familiarity of your laughter. the telepathic messages still being relayed. new moon in Virgo – my thoughts are on replay. curious as to if I cross your mind these days. don’t think I ever really did if I’m being honest. never showed any affection. so maybe I was, just trippin’. only saw the possible potential in the situation. slightly delusional. but, did you, too? or no? go ahead, you can tell me your secrets. you know I love to listen…you talk so much about yourself anyways. ego big. buggin’. reminiscing on the sacred thoughts we shared in the dark. I saw the light in me, in you, from the very start. written in constellations, I read our story in the stars. nowadays doesn’t matter what I saw or what didn’t happen, still gotta get past it. not sure if the energy was even meant to stay, seems like we always let it fade away. it’s whatever forever tho….still grateful. So, Thanks. hope to see you again some day. a biblical angel, guy with 6 eyes… still sometimes seemed blind.
september 5, 2026
a Gemini
split lines
a lovely contradiction
dance between worlds
find harmony in uniqueness
elevate in the day, just to
spiral in the darkness
spirit of a child
mind stays the sharpest
evil twin < 3
september 4, 2026
nothing poetic to say today.
I’m sad
about something I never had -
still wish I could go back.
I feel bad,
and I miss you.
September 2, 2026
Dream girl, in a dream world...
Subconscious mind in a swirl...
Light codes, futures yet to exist.
Crazy, maybe all that it is.
Highest Priestess.
1, 2, 3D. Trinity...
Not stuck in the grid.
Nor trapped in an outcome.
More endings that can form
from free will...
Finales, undetermined still.
Inclined to take the red pill
from Morpheus.
To see, an Oracle...
Thank you, I did.
august 31, 2026 (( 7:37 am ))
wonder if they notice
( all the lost men )
when I'm looking at them
like there's something to be said
hesitant
say goodbye instead
easier to deal with that than
heightened emotion
don't worry I'll send a prayer your way
someday, maybe later
idk
see you in church
august 30, 2026 (( 2:07 pm ))
breakfast at Tiffanys, light blue frequency
never feel lost around you, main squeeze for many moons
and dance floors
no matter the miles between you and I
the Universe will always guide
us back together
"I'd find you in every lifetime "
4/7 portal to Heaven, everybody watching, jealous
they can't find soulmate connection
with a hazel-eyed Aries princess
baddie in every dimension
chrome heart aura, open-mind
best friend like mine < 3
august 30, 2026 (( 6:53 am ))
two truths can exist at once.
sit in silence and contemplate that
not everything is white / / / black.
you hear me ?
get yours.
august 28, 2026 (( 9:16 am ))
whimsy in my veins but there is so much grief
simultaneously, feminine rage. noticing things
you'd never find in the hearts of the blind
~ a sliver of light ~ lunar eclipse
the Earth crosses between the moon and the sun
a portal casts a red shadow, luminary filled with blood
outside looking up
never cared for forced romance between
the sun and the moon
eons of humanity never give the girl room
just to breathe
can't they see she never needed something so full of itself
to give her its light, to be Queen of the night
never see her dark side. suffocated. outshined.
want to talk about light? something divine?
the way water sparkles while the sun is up
a bright star reflecting on the ocean
sometimes can see right through a wave
but the sea is too deep, can't cast its light all the way
the open sky gives them enough s p a c e to exist
two singular things coming together
room to breathe and surrender to the alchemy of nature
creating a third more magical thing - something rare
always feel grateful to get to see
the Earth glitter
stay humble.
august 25, 2026 (( 11:06 pm ))
have something special to give, not too sure what it is
even if I did, no longer have an audience
friends have all come and go
walked the red carpet, drank and smoked
then tossed their vip ticket and went home
still I go on, without an applause
ANOINTED.
pressure to share a message from God
self-express my Self to death, sometimes feel nothing left
but emptiness
a dry well
OH WELL!
learned to finesse my way through it all
I'm still the best
tried to help fallen angels remember their light
they never cared to listen
comfortable in darkness, they've forgotten what's right
but guess I knew that before I gave them a ticket
never occurred to me they could just miss it
the main act, 5 star spectacle of the night
I'm different, never minded being in the spotlight
but it is what it is, never is what it isn't
the show must go on, warble my siren song
sing my heart out to an empty front row
clap for all my past selves that performed, take a bow
BRAVO!
nobody there to throw me a rose
close the curtains myself, reap what everyones sewn
ENCORE!
one last song for the ghosts
of the people that told me they'd be at my show
break a leg ❤
august 18, 2026 (( 4:20 pm ))
the rear view mirror foggy with smoke. honey and brown eyes. recognition that they had already met in a past life. a portal of energies, analogies and double entendres, an envision of light. eternal sunshine of the never spotless minds. both halves a one of one. (( 111 )) two artists fully immersed in their craft, their collaboration still a work in progress. shared visions, shared interests, forced to make bold decisions, or rather surrender to the bigger picture. baptized in fire, intertwined auras shining bright. what is to give light must endure burning…right? to spend the rest of their lives only sometimes revisiting the half worked on work of art, and yearning, they wouldn’t mind. just a sign of the times. inner-knowing, one stroke of light on the canvas could close the gap and make it right. don’t hold the brush too tight, let it go, don’t fight the unraveling timeline. wrap it in ribbon when it is finished, hang it up somewhere nice. look back at the creative process and cry. star crossed lovers seduced by the dark, forced the spark to die.
august 14, 2026 (( 7:11 pm ))
all of this thought, expression. confusion.
processing of emotion, wondering, pondering.
feeling, healing, telepathically speaking.
never stop to think that maybe...
maybe, maybe, maybe
maybe, maybe, maybe
maybe, maybe, maybe
maybe, I just might be crazy.
꩜
august 14, 2026 (( 9:34 am ))
loving you is a little different
I don't like you a lot
a paradox
it's all noise anyways
distractions
crows laughing
at me from up above
my spirit animal
giggling at my heavy spirit
I think - too hard
sometimes forget to smile
no matter how much it shines
the light is consumed
I'm a black hole
sometimes feel empty
the light it emitted
i'm a white hole
choose to be
whichever is more positive
for the day
I'm the sky
infinite
sometimes the moon
phases
I'm a flower
bloomin'
sometimes the ocean
moody
tides come and go
shapeshiftin'
my eyes stay the same.
visions of yours.
(( 666 ))
august 12, 2026 (( 1:47 pm ))
.....and I didn't mention, that you should have meant it
I'm not here to listen, and you know what's happened
and you free your demons, when you're on my planet
and now I'm floating away but you know where I'll be at
and I might just have to leave you there
broken hearted
is your ego gonna make it ?
....and I didn't mention, that I can be manic
and I can't imagine, this was bound to happen
but you won't see my demons, you won't get a reaction
it is what it is and I don't know where you're at
but I'm not here for a connection with no inspiration
we could have gone for a while, far
cause there's no stoppin'
we should have finished what we started
broken hearted
are we gonna make it ?
august 12, 2026 (( 7:58 am ))
eclipses aways feel like an omen
a black cat crossed my path this morning
(swear)
while I was praying to the Gods
to hear my prayers
which is a conundrum in itself
there’s no one up there listening
you’re your own savior
my higher-self airdrops future memories to me
visionary drop-ins
she tells me “don’t spiral Queen, learn how to soften”
even with arrows being shot at me often ?
yes.
the arrows never pierce through my heart however
my mind won’t let me go all in
or fall in love
my conscious far too clever
it’s all fake
maybe 99%
the 1% that’s real, makes my days
for real
brighter
anyways
not today
the moon is crossing in front of the sun
the light is fading, eclipsing
cover your crown, chosen one
august 7, 2026 (( 8:51 am ))
closure
doesn't always come wrapped in words
or phone calls
or eye contact
sometimes the air just feels less dense
you're not so hesitant
to smile at a stranger
your aura finally closed the door
on things that killed you once before.
august 6, 2026 (( 8:43 am ))
why'd I think you were good for me?
always kept it G
not that that ever was a fault
its just your heart locked in a vault
couldn't seem to crack the code
then again
if G equates to seven
it would have been 77
walking angel number, blessin'
an entity from heaven
then there's me
i'm just a ꩜
what's that mean?
who cares to know
a letter, shape, a zero?
then again
if emptiness creates a void
it's a black hole
beautiful noise
spiraling, collecting joy
now I see from a different angle
the ocean and a dark angel
your words came from the sky
my energy controlled the tides
the s p a c e between us feels so fatal
still somehow i'm only grateful
holy water / / / holy spirit.
june 13, 2026 (( 7:57 pm ))
got this shordy cross the country
said she likes to waste time with me
pretty flower, fire fairy
come to find out that she's married
not my business not my interest
know you'll never catch me trippin'
picking petals in the meadows
waterfalliin' in stilettos
pretty fire, flower fairy
bend over backwards if she'd let me
a rose with thorns.
may 15, 2026 (( 12:47 pm ))
the birds and the bees
and the trees and the seas
all work together to show me, me
heart in the Earth, but my mind's in the sky
don't bother asking how or why
things are always working as they should
don't always know when
but I would if I could
and the flowers they point up to the sun
they die every winter (that must be so fun)
they come back in spring
brighter than before
our heads in the clouds
our roots in the floor
BLOOM .
may 15, 2026 (( 12:11 am ))
dying
like a flower without the sun
when you leave
tough luck
tough love
the nights feel long
but the years go fast
moonlight & poetry
still stuck in the past
spent all my pennies wishing
can hardly afford
to move forward
my watch has worn
out from moving in every direction
glitching
trying to send my light and protection
praying
this frequency is eternal
there's no need for rushing
slow down please
say you'll be my nothing ~
may 8, 2026 (( 8:58 pm ))
must be fun to run from unconditional love, maybe mine isn't good enough. maybe it's too much - you cant't keep up, you like to stay stuck in patterns that have already been outgrown. in spirals, no balancing equilibrium (the cups are tipping over) can't stand standing in the sun
shadows are too clear there, you're used to playing in the dark. maybe you can't bare the fact that your current path has no finish line for you to cross, no friends around to cheer on your wins or condemn your losses.
maybe you hate walking alone cause you'll start feeling lost and I'm a lone flower somewhere down the path, so caring for me would come with the cost of your old life. a new perspective. a shift. a wave. a drift. a closed-eye high-toss of that half-dollar coin you gave me a while back. felt like an omen, for good luck. maybe you don't want to pivot, you've been watering dead plants for a minute
maybe there isn't "us", so you don't care to take that jump. which is cool cause I wouldn't be there to catch you anyways. maybe there aren't brighter days for "us" , you and I. we could never be together. but maybe one day you'd remember we speak the same language as each other. it's lovely to see your eyes again, thought at least you'd be my friend..I'm going to give my hope a rest, it's for the best. stay over there and water your dead plants, lone flower but I know where the love is at - alone. I'm in no rush to uncover an "us", you're just as unobtainable as ever. fire and air, can create and destruct, both everything, everywhere, all at once.
march 16, 2024 (( 10:50 pm ))
fighting. running. trying to survive.
find a knife. give it your life.
cut your heart. cut your hand.
full force.
wait.
find a mirror instead.
stab the person in the mirror. in the head.
stop.
smile.
drag the knife across the glass.
smile again. the devils here. it's only you.
be grateful.
may 23, 2023 (( 3:26 pm ))
what is time? if I'm timeless
mercury year 88 days
venus year 225d
Earth year 365 days and some change
mars year 1y11m
jupiter year 11y10m
saturn year 29y7m
uranus year 84y
neptune year 164y
pluto year 284y
does that count?
I'm time-less.
april 5, 2023 (( 11:28 pm ))
acts like he doesn’t give a damn but I always see right through it. how could he do it? to me. colors don’t seem to shine, trapped in my mind. or more like the memories of him and me, before we were 3. (( 333 )) no light left for us, killed all of our trust. don’t you remember our energy, the frequency, the fallacy of us being a family. introduced you to dimensions you weren’t used to. to this day never felt so used. but what’s done is done, we only exist in the past now. no need to play black and white re-runs of memories that haunt me. fake loyalty. the lucid dreams I had that made me think we’d grow a tree. planted a seed, both watered me, just to never greet the sun. my everything, still wasn’t enough. not everything for you. flashbacks of when it was just us 2 under the moon. fuck you. triggered. go figure. its whatever. what a pleasure it was to finally leave. thank you for my son, thank you for returning my love. back to me – in human form. at the end of the day, you went the wrong way. learned to move at my own pace, still finished the race. i’m the one who won.
September 26, 2022 (( 7:28 am ))
chain smoke cigarettes
sit and reminisce
on beautiful moments of temporary happiness
with people that you love enough
to think will last forever
but only the moon can come and go
and still always be complete
and only the stars can remember.
july 2, 2021 (( 7:01 pm ))
there's always two sides to the story
yin / / / yang
like my mind
a gemini
hold my equilibrium
pray to the divine feminine
balance out my chakras
so many things to stay on top of
learning myself, know my worth
I bring light to the Earth
dripping water, I gave birth
to my ideas
in this timeline
spiritual / / / material
time piece shining
wrist on diamonds
divine timing
all this time ive been the leader
manifesting life for eons
I stay high, they hate to see it
elevation, im succeeding
read my chart, then ask the cards
merging my mind, spirit, and heart
holy trinity
I'm all in , poker baby
doing it for the thrill
or is it for the win ?
my only competition is my own reflection
and I keep my eyes straight, like my business
keep a game face, fuck your feelings
never gamble with my blessings
so I always beat the odds
you can call me an oddball
stacking up like money in the summertime
age like wine, only finer with time
glass bottle body, im a dime
and please don't fucking bother me
this shit aint free
honey drip for eyes (so sweet)
use shades to hide from the fire that's my mind
can't expose myself too much
can't let them know I get a rush
when we're together, getting high
off a new perspective, a new type
of understanding for this life
rewind the time, lets make it right
it was 9:99 (am)
the sun needed to rise.
june 1, 2024 (( 8:02 pm ))
wish I knew then what I know now
my psyche is a scatter
brain in the whip
its almost 6 (am)
how'd we end up on the beach?
I don't know
its just the ocean
and you don't want to swim
but I'm already here
the beginning
and the end .
prophetic dreams
astral queen
im chasing, you're writing
per usual
why are you using chalk?
you know it fades away
you should just talk
to me, instead
sometihing's in the way
like Nirvana
but more like a wall
Pink Floyd
except your walls are made of fire .
my desire = too much
your mind = too much
but if I got another chance
to watch you use your hands
while you're reciting poetry
the way you do
I'd pull up in a rush
I'm over it.
something's always in the way.
