thoughts

november 3, 2026

I had an epiphany, or rather I REMEMBERED something about the heart and the mind. I am going to share the thoughts as they come, as I type, before they escape my attention…..

if the heart is emitting an electromagnetic frequency much higher than the rest of the body, this means that the entire concept of “intuition” is merely the consciousness of the brain, picking up on the vibrations and the innate primal knowing that is being transmuted from the heart center. this subsequently connects to the notion that we must “trust your gut feelings” as well. the heart has its own natural intelligence in which it responds to its surroundings, information, interactions with people, vibrations, stimuli, etc etc. and it is then the responsibility of the MIND to TRUST what the heart has swiftly interpreted and responded to. on an energetic level this makes sense in a “woo-woo” type of way, but when broken down to a quantum observation, it is simply louder, more dense energy guiding mutable energy (awareness) in the right direction. so, in a sense the heart truly does lead the way and we should absolutely follow our hearts because it is a true and honest reactor to the factors in our lives and to one other. from a spiritual aspect – it is said that when the mind and the heart are co-existing in harmonious trust with one another, this is the gateway to enlightenment. the 4th and 7th chakras must be in alignment. whenever the mind is overloaded or it feels as if your surroundings are overwhelming, you are thinking too much, you are not sure of what path to choose when making a decision, keep in mind that the heart has not changed and is the same organ/energy body/transmuter it has always been and has kept every human being alive for forever, on the physical plane, on an energetic field, and in the quantum level – the heart KNOWS!I was under the impression previously that the mind had to catch up to the primal knowing of the heart space and they would be considered EQUAL but I realized that the mind actually has to SURRENDER completely to the knowledge of the heart. almost in the same way that masculine energies within and without our selves should succumb to the nurturing and primal instinctive feminine energies. as within, so without. ultimately – it is up to the mind to accept and INTEGRATE this knowing in perfect trust and harmony. TRUST YOURSELF! trust your heart. I love you.

october 4, 2026

most people completely lack curiosity and care that is vital to have in order to be a good friend or lover. it is absolutely a fault of people in this day and age to either not have the CAPACITY to love or to simply not have the COURAGE to surrender to their own desires. too many things stand in the way. which goes back to my last post of not understanding that we don’t have time. there are not infinite minutes or opportunities. there is no urgency to care or love. this is such a fallacy of human understanding. personally, I always check up one people, its almost effortless for me to have the curiosity necessary to be a good friend to others. I understood from very early on that people and opportunities to care will come and go faster than we are able to comprehend how temporary they are. and although regret and mistakes are absolutely part of growth and learning and realizing how momentary our opportunities can be, I have alchemized and learned quickly that we must express how we feel and express care when we have the chance to. the worst thing that can meet you in a state of vulnerability is rejection. but, we must not fear rejection. and there are many layers to this simple statement, one must move with confidence and vulnerability and the inner knowing that everything works out as it should and people, jobs, fun, love, lessons etc etc that are meant to stay in our orbit always will. if they become lost they will always surrender again to the organic gravitational pull of alignment at some point. but to move with this confidence, one must respect their own decision-making and their time and their energy and their own intention and heart. lately, i have been feeling very isolated in my ability to love and care and communicate. conversation feels like a lost art. curiosity is NEVER reciprocated. so it has been extremely quiet. I am having a hard time discerning whether I am experiencing peace or numbness. and there aren’t enough factors in my life or people around me or things happening to me for me to be able to work through it and find out. sometimes i feel like a ghost. but I know it’s just part of the song and it’ll get better. God usually isolates us right before delivering more abundance to our lives- IF and WHEN we are open to it. if and when we are a divine match for the frequency of the eternal love and light that is always waiting for us to tap into it. THE LAW OF PURE POTENTIALITY. everything and anything can be accessed and manifested and conjured into our reality at any given time. law of attraction. the very basis of creation. the very basis of manifestation. on the contrary this is how self-sabotage and depression is so easily sparked as well and how we feel so out of alignment so quickly. we see the path clear and glowing before us and our conscience discerns right from wrong. our intuition just knows what is for us and that which is not for us. and here we go, us silly little stubborn humans, we enjoy rerouting and playing BIG. playing God so much that we will force another path to spawn and happily skip down this self made path while our conscience gets left behind us and forgotten. the little voice of the angel on our shoulder is completely drowned out by the noise. and sometimes the noise is so fun! and so chaotic. we begin orchestrating our own ensemble with all of our fucking noise. people like me will dance and twirl in the noise and literally not give a shit if anybody else wants to listen to it. vibing. creating. but once the show is over and we’re back in the silence, here comes the whisper again of the conscience we ignored. and the guilt and the shame and the regret settles in. and we have to go back and find it waiting on the path that we abandoned. and if we’re lucky we get the opportunity to choose this path again. but sometimes we don’t get the chance. but the silver lining is that we at least got to hear our own symphony. right? we are so funny when we ignore divine music and create noise instead. but this is what makes us better conductors of our own life. experience. and regret. and observation. these things lead to surrender and alignment. when moving in alignment we get to experience co-creating and co-directing a symphony with God. the ultimate special guest.

sometimes I think God is just our higher-self guiding us in the right direction in real time. like how it is portrayed in Interstellar. when we come to find out the signs and aliens and all of these coincidences are literally YOU in another dimension of space. it makes complete sense. who else can lead you and forgive you and love you more naturally than your own spirit? we are in control, we KNOW what to do. we must not ignore the spark in our minds and our hearts if we want to exist in a flow state with life around us. we must not lose curiosity and capacity to love and BE LOVED if this is what we are seeking. it is all in our hands. we are the authors, we are the poets – if we choose to add depth and beauty to our story. Life is not happening to us, it is happening within us. Move accordingly. GodSpeed.

october 1, 2026

“you don’t see the urgency, that really worries me, the problem is that we think naturally, that we have time, but you’ll find, anything can happen, don’t take life for granted”

a problem we all face in this life, in this dimension is that we THINK we have unlimited time. we think we have never ending minutes – to stay stuck, to procrastinate, to wish, to wait for the “perfect moment”, to not seize opportunities, to wonder about others instead of communicate. what we need to comprehend is that time is not real. time is a concept. we do not have unlimited minutes. we do not have minutes at all. all we have is now. all we have is here. this moment. the past is nothing but feelings, memories, snippets of life. the past only exists in our minds. we can (and very frequently do) access the past by reliving the situation(s) we have experienced in any particular moment, in our minds, and conjuring a resurface of feelings attached to these moments. we make these moments part of our now, again and again. although the past is not real, our feelings are very much real. this is magic. this is a projection of our own thoughts. of our own feelings. the Universe responds to how we are feeling, it doesn’t care if we are feeling this way about something that happened a week ago, 10 years ago, 30 years ago. we are creating a frequency NOW. we are creating our reality now. the theory of time travel has been used and dissected in multitudes of ways, people spend millions of dollars attempting to glitch time and surpass concepts of past/present/future, to combine them into one continuous line of time that we can voluntarily tap in and out of at our leisure. a notion nothing less than absurd when taking into account that ALL. we. have. is. NOW. all there ever will be is now. besides, even if we could trick God and trick science into bending and folding this man-made concept of a timeline for us, I can’t help but wonder – would our very beings remain the same way they were when they experienced these things? who’s to say we could even access our past selves in the present. for those of us ever-changing, ever-growing, the idea that we can morph back into a past version of the SELF even in the “past ‘ is unlikely and also unbearable. in NO timeline, in no reality, in no NOW could anybody in the world access a past version of myself. that person, that energy, that avatar, she no longer exists. past versions of people can only be accessed through thought. through memory. and yes, of course, we can take these thoughts of others and materialize them into words. into pictures. into art. into poetry…into something tangible. this is but a manifestation of the psyche. this is alchemy. this is love. this is hatred. this is fear. fear of NOW. we have to meet people where they are now. we always hear “art is timeless” and although this is true, what it really is, is the artists projection of their experience becoming timeless when manifested in the 3D. the past is not real. and the future? the future is yet to exist. the future is waiting for us to meet it with a plan. to meet it with surrender. to meet it with free will. I do believe the Universe enjoys seeing our souls manifest and create different lanes of opportunity for ourselves. however, there is the possibility that everything occurring is by design. potentially we are making decisions, choices, feelings, LOOPS, projections of the past, thoughts, which alter our now and change the course of outcomes, sure. but when looking at how life always works out and our higher self always cradles us in times of defeat as well as times of prosperity, it feels as though we are right where we are meant to be, right when we need to be there. we experience our lessons and our accomplishments and our failures as we s should. whether we learn and choose to attach them to our story, is our own choice, but we are gifted the present again and again.we are co-creating with the power of NOW. we are co-creating with GOD. we are co-creating with each other. everything unfolds and BLOOMS exactly as it should. in your control. in your design. in your creation. in your frequency. one moment trails into the next moment, with light. or dark. or both, you decide. remember the Universe only offers you a reflection of what you have offered it. of what you have offered yourself. it sends your own frequency back to your antenna. your aura. do not let projections of past now’s dictate your possibility of creating a better now in the future. do not let doubt and fear dictate your energy now. clear your emotional baggage. clear your mind. clear your heart. bend your reality, seize your potential. line up all of your nows and make them golden, to enjoy every golden now you’ve yet to experience. this is the true definition of alignment. all we really have is now. I love you.

september 28, 2026

I’ve been so busy doing things for future me in the 3D the last few weeks that I haven’t had a chance or the time to articulate my thoughts in a way that they can provoke introspection or awareness. I’m still having 10,000 thoughts per minute but I can’t seem to unravel them in a way that is cohesive. the poetry tends to write itself or come as a download so, it’s not something that necessarily requires too much time or too much verbal construction.

I am deep in the process of obtaining my degree for communications (with an emphasis on journalism). one of the activities that a professor of mine assigned was to write down 10 things to identify/label myself as and what those things mean to me personally. I found this to be introspective and reflective and also somewhat a bit of a challenge. the ego has a tendency of bringing forward things that don’t really matter about the self when initially pondered on. after the initial quick surface level responses fade however, more personal attributes/character traits surface and have more depth and more meaning. I’m going to be vulnerable and post mine here and I would recommend this as a quick activity to reconnect with your inner Self. I love you.

https://docs.google.com/document/d/1IWmDOBhO0HC6vVrsTazWA6QKBqELQ8LvpLxtaoRkZZY/edit?usp=sharing

September 3, 2026

not exactly sure of how to write on this topic in a way that addresses it to the collective, as I am almost certain it is not a collective experience. nor will it have much structure! sometimes understandings need to be shared before they disappear again into the void. the thought is that – I have lost a lot of friendships. the human side of me of course experiences grief for loss and regret for times I could have tried to work things through with the people I love instead of leaving them with only s p a c e to process and deal with themselves as karma for how they interacted (( or didn’t interact )) with me. and pretty memories. however, when I take a step back and look at the bigger picture, I feel mostly grateful.

the truth is, for the awakened, that most of the people that leave our lives, as much as we love(d) them, they do not hold the same energetic capacity that the enlightened have. this is not to say one person is better than the other or to speak purely from a place of ego; if anything, it is the opposite. there is a deeper level of understanding that regardless of the desire and the loyalty one may have towards another, if one person is not residing in a heightened frequency of self-love and self-respect, often times, they must simply go to where they can find the same frequency they emit within others. on an energetic / / / quantum level – the matter interacting with the proposed possibility is simply not of great enough resonance to produce an outcome in which both energies are benefiting, there is no symbiosis. one parties energy is being siphoned, whether consciously or unconsciously, and the other parties energy is in turn growing from these interactions. which may not be in a positive way. it can fuel the fire for more of what they are already struggling with internally. it is UNBALANCED. given that one must protect their frequency in order to stay in their own personal alignment, in order to continue to move at the pace they are naturally inclined to move at, without restriction, without residual foreign frequencies entering their auric field. they must leave. this comes with GRIEF. this comes with confusion, it comes with loss, hurt, overthinking, anger, destruction. it can become toxic. this pertains to dragging out friendships, family members, coworkers, jobs, romantic partners – you catch my drift. personally, I miss a lot of the people that have exited my gravitational pull very much. sometimes, I feel angry with them for leaving. but, they simply cannot tag along for a joy ride on my spaceship. I send them a prayer, I keep them in my thoughts, and I move on. there is not anger or regret or animosity. simply acknowledgement that maybe at one time we were of a like frequency and we DID in fact resonate with one another but as the story continues, my higher self knew they were not part of the next chapter, maybe before my physical body could make sense of it. but, nonetheless still in alignment with self-respect. I have also experienced a flip of the coin of this dynamic. I have left friends/have friends that have left, not certain of which party is “at fault”. but because both parties were working towards personal growth during separation, we are able to rekindle and pick back up where we left off after ACKNOWLEDGING that there was a gap in frequency. these are OUR REAL FRIENDS. to put ego-driven pride aside to admit that there is a channel open where one person is flowing with pure essence and the others waters may be murky, yet can always be cleared again with intention. that is growth. there is always a chance to cross paths down the stream. that is LOVE. I do believe it can be lonely at the top, but what’s better than being lonely, together? become a clear vessel for partnership. value your real friends. i love you.

august 31, 2026

everything is on fire and the ice is melting at the same time. the Earth is drowning and we’re expected to care about clocking in to a 9-5 job that feels like a sitcom. it’s absurd. people are on SSRI’s for symptoms that are caused by just having general awareness of current world and political events. so much medication being administered for basic human empathy. people thinking something is wrong with them because they have anxiety after watching children get bombed and their killers making a vlog in the same 30 seconds. ((( FREE PALESTINE ))) we’re watching whole villages be drowned in flash floods. rural areas. there’s no AI data centers there. unfair. ungodly. you can spiral into it if you don’t control the depths that you let it affect you. but, isn’t this the point? people are trying to make a difference but our voices are so small, and communities are non-existent. everyone is hyper-indepedent. we lack resources. we lack motivation. we lack T I M E to envision a better future. it’ll make you go mad. and as much as we are helpless in the grand scheme of the world, the best thing we can do here and now is realize how much our energy matters. remember that by helping ourselves, we help those around us. Jesus Christ said “thou shalt love thy neighbor as thyself.” 2nd commandment (( 222 )). when we focus our attention and INTENTION on ourselves and the people around us, we inevitably begin to heal the collective consciousness. in the energetic realm/quantum field, we are all matter. matter interacting with possibility. your energy and aura affect that of the person next to you, and theirs of the person next to them and so on and so forth. the same way one overly ripe banana can make the entire bunch go bad – this is human nature. on the contrary, if one MUSHROOM is damaged or dying, surrounding mushrooms can send nutrients through the mycelium web to repair the damaged mushroom – this is also human nature. loving thy neighbor as thyself must begin with loving thyself. love yourself. to love themselves, fiercely. genuinely, one must (or should, at least) KNOW themselves. to know yourself is to learn yourself. to learn something is to be curious about it. be curious. about yourself, question yourself. question your energy. learn it, master it, integrate it, share it. BE it. be awareness and love, and be aware of and love your neighbor. this is the only way for us to survive while the 3D world is collapsing and the 5D world is being co-created by those of us aware enough to realize that fire on EARTH is going to destroy everything in its path. tragedy is inevitable. human beings are a disease. but this also makes soil RICH for the possibility of new creation. we must move into the future with love and light for each other. break out of the boxes we are put in. plant gardens, figuratively and literally. for the light that will exist long after all of us are gone. leave the matrix and enter your own world. make it positive, make it pretty. I’ll come visit. ꩜

“This is your last chance. After this, there is no turning back. You take the blue pill – the story ends, you wake up in your bed and believe whatever you want to believe. You take the red pill – you stay in Wonderland and I show you how deep the rabbit hole goes. Remember, all I’m offering is the truth. Nothing more” ……… choose. i love you.

august 28, 2026

we are taught that, essentially, there is natural order in the Universe. that the world has moral balance. that people considered “good” receive good things, and people considered “bad” have to face self-caused consequences. as we grow, our reality and experiences dismantle this expected symmetry, and we are left confused and curious. curious of whether innate goodness still has value when we realize that there is absolutely no guarantee that it will be reciprocated or rewarded. when we still hold our innocence, before we understand imbalanced dynamics, it is emphasized that we establish certain positive behaviors to share with the world – be honest, be kind, be loyal, be a good friend, etc.. if we do these things, then goodness will follow. KARMA. dharma. law of attraction in its purest essence. but, life teaches us a different perspective very early, or at least as soon as we are ready to receive the wisdom. or disappointment. whichever way you look at it. morality and goodness only shape who YOU are, and not necessarily what it is we receive. the good will lose, more often than not. and more often than not, the undeserving will prosper. it feels unfair, like we get stuck in loops of trying to come out on top, sometimes exhausting our energy. trying to create our own karma, whether good or bad. this is where faith is tapped into. this is where surrender must be utilized. virtue offers no guarantee of victory. good or bad does not exist beyond the 3D. it is all energy. the Universe does not differentiate black or white. it is all space and potentiality. integrity comes into play with importance to nobody but ourselves. so, who are you when nobody’s watching? I am a star. God speed. happy eclipse.

august 27, 2026

people often think that their mind is working against their heart or vice versa. we get stuck in loops of overthinking what the outcome will be if we were to follow our heart. to a point of emotional paralysis. stagnancy. this causes disruption in the psyche which leads to feelings of stress, anxiety, disappointment, yearning, confusion, etc. etc.. not only is this self-inflicted emotional turmoil, it is also a deeply rooted attachment to fear of judgment. fear of rejection. fear of expression. the matrix. emotions are simply energy in motion. they are not meant to linger, they are meant to be expressed. they are meant to be acknowledged and let go. when the 4th and 7th chakras are in heightened energetic alignment with one another, consciousness begins to move in a way that just KNOWS what is beneficial for the BODY. for its awareness. for it highest and greatest good. in comfort. in harmony. FLOW STATE. we overthink so much, we may even overthink our overthinking. an endless spiral of self-judgment and lack of following our inner-knowing. ignoring this inner-knowing is ignoring God. it is important for us to always seek equilibrium, to seek alignment of the desires of the heart with he cooperation of the mind. the MIND must bend to the natural will of the heart, for the HEART is what brings the mind to life to begin with. your heart generates an electromagnetic field that is roughly 100 x stronger than that of the brain. the heart produces the largest rhythmic, magnetic and electrical field of anywhere else in your body. when our heart S P A C E is in alignment with our thoughts, our entire neural system synchronizes. this is power, this is God, this is SOURCE. this is light. harness your light and eliminate anything or anybody from your auric field that makes you question, dim or abandon your light. it may even be a version of your inner-self that lives in fear and worry. that lives in the back corner of your mind. you can always eliminate her/him from your life too. move towards your heart. strive for purity. I love you.

august 26, 2026

I am still in the process of learning how to express myself without frequently using the word “I”, so bear with me. third person perspectives usually suffice, but often times a metaphor or analogy is better descriptive. I guess that’s what creative writing is. make it pretty. over-use of the word “I” makes expression feel too much like a personal journal but the purpose of this is to RELATE and CONNECT. express. I am in a portal where I am realizing the importance of sharing my experiences and perspectives in a way that allows me to address the collective. because I am part of the collective. age of information. AGE OF AQUARIUS. simultaneously I understand that if my intention is to create and express, I am the observer just as much as I am the artist. so if it is only me observing my expression, at least I know I put my heart in what I am perceiving by the time I get around to perceiving it. rest assured, my personal journal is much more intimate and emotional and expressive. private. this isn’t a crutch to let people feel close to me without actually being close to them. I am not in the business of parasocial relationships (( anymore, at least )) I genuinely just have a lot to say because light decides to use me as a vessel to express itself. I am releasing my thoughts, and alchemizing them into collective light. as God intended.

every thought we have and every idea that is sparked in our minds and hearts do not belong entirely to us. part of our consciousness is observing our psyche and differentiating what is OURS, what is our inner critic, and what is GOD. you know when your inner voice sounds like this … “you are such a mess, you were supposed to cross these 3 tasks off your to-do list today and instead what did you do? Nothing! you are so lazy, no wonder you’re miserable.” it happens to all of us. now, imagine that that voice was actually a person outside of yourself, narrating not only your mistakes but also your small accomplishments and every day actions. how long would you be able to keep this person around? they would not be the most enjoyable company or humble friend, now, would they? master your inner voice, make it your friend. treat it as someone outside of yourself, because it is! you are God experiencing life, outside in the dark searching for yourself with a lantern. look inward. I love you.

trust in life, trust in SELF, trust in GOD /// SOURCE /// CREATOR. trust that you are not separate from the creator. from source. we are living in a projected reality, a web of self created emotions, thoughts, actions, ideas, communication, love, grief, anger. we are God(s). what we experience internally is simply but a creation, because we are each individual creators. it is vital that we also understand that what we create personally is not universal truth. our projection, our interpretation, our emotions, are separate from our neutral reality. REMEMBER that you are a drop of consciousness in an OCEAN made of drops of consciousness. you are the creator of your own life. you are the creation of your own life. you are a micro creator, co-creating a reality that is a simulation of a collective consciousness. so…create. manifest. do not look far from yourself to ask for blessings. do not look up to ask for creation, or mercy, forgiveness, or love. you are the creator. you are the merciful. you are the forgiver. you are the lover. you are the LIGHT. you are your own personal experience, experiencing an outside experience. do not place your sacredness and your essence in the hands of others or in a concept which cannot care fully for its own sacredness. the concept of God, the misconception that we are separate from God, is a distraction from the inner knowing of the connection to the infinite potential of creation. the field of potentiality. the natural law of pure potentiality. in our pure essence we are unconstrained, unconditioned. we hold boundless potential and possibility. the creator created us, from creation. from infinite potential. we are infinite potential. we can ((( and do ))) manifest our reality both consciously and subconsciously. when the conscious and subconscious minds are in harmonious frequency with not only each other but with the neutral physical 3D reality, this is when drops of intention in the field of pure potentiality turn into manifestation. everything is energy. energy is everything. everything is source. source is light. light is energy. energy is you. you are energy. master yourself. master your THOUGHTS, FEELINGS, AND ACTIONS. master life. I love you.